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When you can't find energy....
It is tough when you keep just getting bad news. Well at least that is how it feels. The last few weeks have been a bit tough but I have focused on thinking positive and only talking about my life situation with friends I really feel comfortable talking to regarding my latest development with my illness.
I realize that I really must not dwell these news but instead focus on being and thinking positive. And also be proactive in my choices in what I do and when to do things.
But even though I try hard to keep staying positive, the energy has slowly but surely left my system. I felt already Early last week that the energy depot was totally going empty. I just had nothing more to give, no matter how much I wanted. This weekend had plans but Saturday ended up that I spend pretty much the entire day on the couch half asleep.....
But before that happened I took a long warm bath which felt so good. Though when I got up I totally got a reaction to relaxing....I thought I was going to faint and vomit! It was so bizarre and scary but also such an obvious sign that my entire system told me to back off. I am proud of myself that I have learnt to listen to these type of signals and therefore the couch ended up being the plan for Saturday and unfortunately yet again I had to cancel the plans for the day. If anything I hate doing that but what can one do....?!? It will only get 10 times worse if not.
Today Sunday I felt SO much better and decided to stick to the plan and actually head out in the beautiful October sun. A long walk with some coffe and a play-date for Lakrits with Juno and Kajsa was the perfect medicine for me!
Sometimes this is life, be brave to cancel plans even if I hate it. Cuz when body and mind says no I do know I need to listen and not keep fighting these obvious warning signals. And thanks to listening, today is a much better day, today was a really good day thanks to me saying no yesterday. But now we will both need to sleep and get some rest.