swekarin

It has been a long year.....a tough surgery that got complicated due to the tumour being huge, 6-7 cm in diameter and that pressed towards my esophagus and trakea. It also and encapsulated my vocal cords and during surgery one of my coards got paralyzed plus the nerves got really damaged. Therefore I lost my voice for about 5-6 weeks. Read my blogs from then, really it was hell! But an amazing medicine helped my voice come back and now noone really can hear that one of my vocal coards is paralyzed! I can feel it in some ways but I can live with that compared to what could have been..... But what I want to show today is the scar. The scar that I couldn't touch or look at for the first few months. I had friends, Malin and Cia coming by helping me switch bandaids. I seriously almost fainted. It didn't hurt but just the idea of surgery and a scar on my neck made me feel dizzy and sick to my stomach. Today the scar looks like this. I never would have thought it would look so good. Still huge but not as outstanding and red as before. Especially since it looked like this back in January. And this in November last year. I don't care that I have a scar on my neck, all I want now is good results and news from the radiation session....j Just writing this blogg makes me think too much about it. But as I have said before, I have done everything in my power to get well. Now it is in someone elses hands.....