swekarin

Noone has ever said that life should be fair! 
Since my last post I have been sort of MIA here on my blogg, the biggest reason is bc I have been so extremely tired. Though, the treatment seemed to be doing what it needed so for now my fight against the cancer seems to be under control. I guess I can say we are back to step one which is to keep the cancer marker under control. How I do that isnt anything I really can effect except for trying to live healthy and work on a positive mind. 

 

I have also been going through an eye surgery which is most likely a side effect of not having a thyroid. 
I have also been extremely tired, so tired that I pretty much have been close to crash and burn. It showed that my thyroid meds dosage had within less than 4 weeks become to high. The side effects of that is that I get too much of the artifical hormones into my. It means I am always on high alert, I guess described in a simple way. 

Think about it as if you are always performning high physical endurande work. The body finally crashes and burns since I can't get enough food and nutrients into my system to keep up with how much the signals from the brain is telling the body to work. So extremely tired, no energy in my muscles but I also got major sweet attacks, just like menopaus. And I am so not there yet. The hair has also been effected since it get thinnner than usual, brittle and breaks. Skin gets really dry, the eyes tear canals has clogged up which is why I ended up needing a surgery on my right eye. I never knew the thyroid had such huge impact on onces health! 

 

So life without a thyroid is a bigger deal than the cancer for me at the moment. Life isn't fair, but at least I am still alive and in good condition to keep fighting. Unfortunately I have within the last few months been receiving way too many sad news that friends and/ or people I know of that are way too young, that have passed or have gotten very bad news that they have terminally vicious cancer. They have only borrowed time left to live. 

Lately I have gotten the question how I feel, my answer varies. For now I mostly say good or ok because that is how it is now. Every day I try to embrace the day as the best day ever, to stay positive, to strenghten my mental condition. I never know when bad news regarding my health will come. So during these periods of calm and quiet without and real contact with the hosptial, I work on becoming as strong mentally and physically as I can. 

And now when Spring is here as well as the light and I am soaking all the energy that I can get! Stay positive, stay strong, fuck cancer!