swekarin

So I have been to the healing place I got recommended by my old co-worker Therese. Thanks for mentioning this and also pushing me to take contact.

If you don't believe in alternative care, in this case healing, stop reading now. Also, if you don't have any positive to say about, meaning you are sceptic and think it is bougus, keep it to yourself.

All I can say is that I don't have words for what happened! I am schooled in the scientific world and that everything should be able to be explained. But even if that is the case I have always had a belief that there are things one can't explain, such as that people can see and feel things that most people can't or are willing to at least. I mean, there is a reason for jin and yang and ancient eastern healing methods exist and are still being used. I totally believe in it, that energies should be in balance. But that you can with various methods fix it when the energies are not balanced. And that is the basis of the healing I went to, the healer works with my energy and her own energy as her tools.

I have always been open minded and willing to try various methods that are not valid according to official western medicine and health care. When I have been injured I have tried so many things that are "a bit out there" and several methods I have made a difference to the better.

Wednesday was my first session......and I can't really put words to it. But from the moment she placed her hands on me
I started feeling that my left side of my belly started working and sounded like crazy! I am not kidding you! After awhile I started realizing that I had explosions of patterns in my eyes, sort of like a caledoscope. It was so intense that I didn't grasp what was going on at first. And, I assume since my eyes were closed, as she moved around my body, the intensity of the patterns and the shape of them decreased or increased. Cuz sometimes it was so intense and I couldn't really see patterns but then occasionally I clearly saw solid patterns.

So many more things happened that I could sense but I can't write all about it bc I still have hard times
putting words to the sensations, feelings etc. But afterwards I totally felt calm and at peace. A feeling I haven't felt in months!!! Only thing I have felt is more or less panic coming and going. Feeling that I need to plan my funeral and nail down a testament! I haven't gotten a death sentence but I guess that is how we as humans react. Of course panic hasn't been at all times. But after Wednesday I have felt a calm mental state. I started to actually take charge of a few things I haven't done but should have.

I totally believe in what happened. It was so strong and real. Whether this will cure me or not from cancer, I don't know, but I know for a fact that it will make me mentally stronger. And that for a fact, I know will be able to help me cure from within.

It is weird, but I feel excited.....Sort of when one is heading of for a huge exciting trip somewhere. I don't know where this will land but I know this is a way for me to move forward with me dealing and healing my body from cancer!

So fuck you cancer!