swekarin

At the end of August I did new

blood work as a planned check to see how my cancer markers looked. Unfortunately and some worrisome, they had more or less doubled since last time. So the doctor decided that I should do a PET scan which was about 2+ weeks ago. 

Today I got the results. Unfortunately no good.  I called the hospital today to ask why I haven't gotten any test results which they said would take a week or just over a week. Left a message and shortly after I called and left a message the doctor calls. That is never good....well at least not for me bc I have only talked to her when she gives me bad news......

Unfortunately new tumours showed on the scans. Small but they are back in the lung and also in the throat, though this time further down and close to my trachcea.

So new iodine treatment in October which means that aweful diet for 10 days, 3 day lock up at the hospital. So now I have 6 months of known uncertainty. And perhaps another surgery. The 

It sucks big times. I am back to where I was  exactly 2 years ago. It so freaking stinks and I am sooo sooo sick and tired of this life situation. I really thought I would be in remission at this time but no no no.

I am starting to feel and perhaps need to accept that this will never go away. I just need to learn to live with this cancer.......